The Dragon's Den

And honesty this is never what I wanted
I don’t want this

I want to cuddle and love genuinely
I want hugs and kisses
And innocent smiles

Not all this regret
And pain
And loneliness

I don’t like being a mistake
a regret in their life
A dark mark on their past
I didn’t ask for that

I didn’t ask for this

Even on vacation I am constantly reminded that all guys have ever wanted me for, and presently want me for, is for sexual things.

But I let them use me because that’s all I can get but my gosh

I feel so empty all the time

Noone wants me for me

And that hurts more than being left alone and being used. 

being unwanted

And they all say they are different
They are the exception
They won’t do that
But I just kind of laugh bitterly
Because they all say that
And they all do it

The ice cream van that just drove by was playing Mozart.

What

I hate this
I hate this
Why
Why do guys do this to me?

I hate being toyed with like this
I hate this
Just please
Please make it stop

I hate this…
Why do the only guys I consider dating treat me like dirt?
Like, you want me to go out with you and fall in love with you
And you say all these things
But you certainly don’t act like it

God, I love the ocean.

I have missed her so.
My health has improved like crazy just from being here for a day.

Gosh I just love the sand and the smell of salt on the cool breeze and the feeling of being sun kissed and soaked by the waves.
I love curling up in the sand and letting the sun dry me off.
I just love it. I was six months old the first time I touched the ocean and I always wish I could be near her.

In the end, I think
I will always return to the sea

OH MY GOSH GUYS IM DONE WITH FINALS DO YOU KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS?!??!!!

CON SEASON HAS OFFICIALLY BEGUN!!! BRING ON THE COSPLAY!!!

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My friend texted me “I was on the subway and I looked down and…”

Omg lol

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